all that stress

too many things and not enough time? too many headaches and not enough sleep? you might be stressed
now if your new then disregard this statement lol, I've made a stress post already but as the time comes where the semester is almost over and finals are literally next week, i felt the need to chat on some maybe thoughts about dealing with the hair pulling, sleep reducing, book hitting stressful days I'm sure are fast approaching you as well like a bat out of hell or a train off its track's barreling towards you. i don't or rather didn't deal well with stress for a long time then i had an aha moment.

look at your stress in the perspective of you as a circle and your in a box, this box is your stress. overwhelming right? your box right now is probably huge. but now make a list of all the things that are stressing you out it doesn't matter what order, or what each thing is just make a list. now the things that aren't mental, like say a paper or an exam you need to study for. tackle that set aside a schedule or an allotted amount for all those things. less bearable right? smaller box now. (hopefully). with the mental aspects like say, your sad or angry at some major thing, sit down and asses why, who or what your *feeling* at or towards. now get up go make some tea and drink it. watch YouTube, zonk out to television, or read a book. don't over worry about these things take it make a list and go with it in steps and with your emotions mull over them and then talk it out or breath it out or even just let it go. in ten days is it going to matter? if it is then seriously talk it out and make lists galore. the box is now smaller,, yes? hopefully

last thing ill say before i go is that taking it and looking at in in size and shapes, stress that is, is a way to tackle the big scary thing in our guts and minds called stress. we cant help but become overwhelmed, but if we take it tackle it and shrink it down we can become better handled in the next situation. please take a moment and try this, hopefully it helps. love you all tons of love X's and Os shiesa.

bonus
WAYS I TAKE AWAY STRESS
read a book ( a leisure book NOT a textbook)
watch my favorite TV show
eating my favorite foods
reading blog posts
watching YouTube 
Talking with my best friends 
Window shopping online 

 i have a youtbe channel there i also have a youtube video on stress 
(dont laugh at my url)

youtube.com/TheFlyesa

Story of my life?

so again I'm in my English class, lols , all day every day.....
i enjoyed writing a poem in my last post so i thought what the hell lets do another one!!

this one is a thought provoker (aren't they all)

breath

how do you do that so well?
no worry lines, no dark circles
smiles every day
 no need to complain or make it seem like there's this constant rain?
you positive, happy and you let it be....
i wish i could be like you
breath slowly and take it with stride
i don't know why i cant
yet i envy you all the same
how, please tell me do you carry yourself in this way?
is there a frame work, a game at play
i haven't invested in?
i want to be and breath
smile so simply
teach me?
...........
its not hard
heady or tough
 all i do is throw in some trust
the day will go well smooth and calm
as long as you realize
God's got it
hes on our side
next week tomorrow or in an hour
these things that make us worry so
wont matter wont bother
because it is gone
there's more in this world and more at cost
than the petty things that seem so big
we worry we cry
but why?
just breath
just breath
its easier to do so
just breath just breath
because life is short
the little don't matter and the good is better
don't worry don't fuss
just breath just breath.....

its been quite a while

So guys i kind of fell off the face of the blogging world and for that i am sorry. i truly apologize.....
 i have been extremely busy with class and my work and with of all things YouTube. but i swear i didn't forget about my blog life. today's blog coincidentally is a poem by me for you.....

Stomp The Ground
id be lying if i said it didn't hurt me
when you pushed me down
 when you treated me like i was nothing more than the ground!
do i look like an ant?
something you can just stomp down?
it affected me i wont lie
but I'm stronger because of it
 i rose up
I'm high above the sky
i wont fall falter or cry
you're not worth my time
what do i look like? surely no ant am i
i will stomp the ground
shake the world
and surely make you proud
haha you thought you made me weak
 when in reality you made me, me
i understand now why you did it
but just so you know
i did it i won
I'm no amoeba in you mind
 I'm a giant
i stand tall proud and beautiful
ready to stomp the ground
ready to stomp the ground 

there it is a poem i have been working on, the lowercase letters are on purpose and i hope you enjoyed it and i hope you got a little inspiration from it. if you didn't know I'm Shiesa i like to write........
see you soon,, I'm going to try to post more often i promise. i love you all.

So as it is

   today's Thursday, its raining and dreadful but i remembered i have to write my blog. i cant say hey i don't want to write today but i remembered i made the commitment and when you make a commitment you should stick to it. so of course I'm trying to stick to my commitment, and be a good blogger. its hard i get sucked into my daily life and i often write these blogs on the fly (again big surprise I'm sitting in English writing this blog) i feel bad because i honestly do have pre planned things to write about yet i run out of time and do them the day of. okay enough my apologies and love (because i do love you all) time for today's post. 

   i was in psychology today and we were talking about women and our body image, how were objectified and how we ourselves seem to objectify ourselves. I'm not gonna lie i got a little angry, the standard that the world or rather America holds for how we as women must look really pisses me off. no ones perfect and every single woman no matter who you are or where you are is beautiful and special and wonderful no matter what. why (and i cant lie i often get picked up in this standard and hum drum of what we must look like, stupid society) why does it seem that we as young women and girls are we have to be put though this sort of jerk and pull of "we want equality we don't want to be objectified, were beautiful, amazing, smart, strong" to then be put down and knocked on our butts because " equality isn't as important if you're not a double d with a size 2 waist long legs a big butt, who takes 'exoctic' pictures and objectify our self because society gets to pick what beauty and a woman is" . it makes me angry and i don't agree with it all, i guarantee you that i will never ever be a size two with a big chest and super long legs. I'm not perfect, I'm not society's ideal of "beauty" but i am beautiful and so are you! 

    don't let America tell you what beauty is because we all are honestly who said that size two is even possible? really every photo we see, commercial we watch and magazine we read is extremely airbrushed and over photo shopped, do you and stay beautiful because beauty is what you make it. honestly i hate that we have to conform to and believe what the media and society tells us, lets just forget the lies and lives.
here is a YouTube video i saw that made me happy. her name is That Linguistic on YouTube and this video just says it all, i think. check it out and remember beauty is not only skin deep but mentally as well. love you all. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qaZ1orYNKuI 

her channel   http://www.youtube.com/user/thatlinguistic?feature=watch

How to breath....

So today was not a great day for me, at all but I was sitting here thinking to myself oh I have to do my blog today and I realized I can vent and say how I feel here and get a post up for the week, I know I know I didn't post last week and I'm sorry I got extremely busy, so I am sorry. here's today's post....

I feel constricted in how I voice the way I feel, I often when it comes to things people and activities I love I tend to try and please them and make them comfortable never voicing how I feel. I feel like I cant breath properly without having to stop and please someone or trying to fix a situation or say sorry or trying to even be honest. today was a trial of nerves for me, I had a very bad day. 

I figured why not tell you guys how I decompress and really let it out and finally breath, I do the following things 
I read, not for school or education but for enjoyment
I listen to music, generally something calm and a softer type of music not really an get on your feet and dance type of music because then I think it takes away from trying to feel better, more so in a decompressing sense.
I watch YouTube, any type of video just YouTube in general helps me divert my mind for a while. 
I drink tea, what a general thing to do but I do I love tea it calms me down and warms me up.
and I try to do other things to make me happy if not all of these things listed in conjunction with other things as well. I hate having the feeling that I cant be happy for the rest of my day so I try my best to make it better after what I feel was the worst is over. here's a video I made on being happy, 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tvfM7N_VXTA 

this is a jumbled post I know but lets just remember don't let the bad get to us and lets breath lets use our techniques we use to feel happy and breath and take all the good of your day and don't feel constricted in life. okay lets breath...........

Make A Habit of.... not today

I keep forgetting to post my Sunday blog and I apologize profusely for that so I'm going to do a "Sunday" post today!
Its okay Sunday!
Its okay to let it be, let be, don't worry and just breath. sometimes its too much and you just let it be. its okay to do so especially when your too overwhelmed to even see straight.
have you ever heard the song "Let it Be" by the Beatles? Here it is, well some it. (my favorite part I think,  I love the beginning of this song.)

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

And when all the brokenhearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be

For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah, there will be an answer let it be

 Read more: Beatles - Let It Be Lyrics | Metro-lyrics

  Why not? once in a while, let it be. life is hard we face struggles we get upset and we get sad. every once in a while because letting it be makes life a tad bit easier and better. let it be, if its too much make the time and let it be. are you mad at your sister? angry you got a C? beyond angry because your mom yelled at you? let it BE!! we cant change the past and twenty minutes from now it wont matter as much. let it be, if not only for today let it be. let it roll off your back and go on with your day. life is tough life is hard, and we need to sometimes let it roll away and forget about it. sometimes letting be will set us free and help us release the bad. so lets just for today and the next couple of times something stressful or bad happens let it be. just let it be.

Inspiration Thursday!

Today is a very busy day for me, but I am currently sitting in English typing this post. dedication is key!
I didn't realize how  often I automatically assume that if I do something good and nice for another person that they'll do the same in return. I assume it so often that I'm  let down a lot, I don't automatically expect it in return how ever I feel as though people should at least recognize the fact that I'm trying to and others are trying to put good into the world.
Yesterday it hit me, like a train, why? why expect something back? I'm doing it just to do it for me its just an automatic response, I love to spread the joy and do good just for the hell of it. I'd like some recognition for my good deeds once in a while however its not at the forefront of my intentions, its literally just an automatic response for me. But what made me think I'd like some recognition was a person I encountered yesterday I had to say no to. They got extremely upset. And it really made me angry, why are you mad the one time I say no? Why after every single other thing I've done for you and others I care about and others that need help, with this one time why do you think you're justified in being angry?

Its not okay to be honest if you are out of the good of your heart or just automatically doing good just for the literal good of it why take the negative response, and let it affect you? If you've never really needed the praise before and the major acknowledgement before, why this one time when someone  puts a damper on your usual good intentions is it affecting you or me? It shouldn't we wont let it, I wont let it. I work hard to put good in the world and hopefully  get good  out, and if this is the case if this is my goal or your goal if your reading this then let it fall off. Try if you don't or if you feel weird just doing you know small favors for people or small acts of kindness, try and do so. You never know the effect we have on people as we go throughout our day. We have both major and minor affects on the people we face and see each day so why not put a little joy and kindness or happiness into their days? Just think how it feels when someone returns that unto to you, its kind of amazing. so I guess today's goal is to go and be kind and brush off the bad, be kind and put good out to hopefully get good in. Remember a small act of kindness can only grow bigger with time.